Message not only to Felix
- Ivan Danihel
- Aug 5
- 4 min read
Updated: Aug 6
My story is unique in that it is an interesting finding of 2 people. These people are: 1st, my reincarnated father — Felix Lee — with whom I am in contact, and 2nd, me, “Felix’s son” from his previous life.
Felix Lee is a member of the K-pop band Stray Kids (next SKZ). About 1/4 of SKZ’s work can refer to the phenomenon just described, as well as the search for someone — Felix’s song Deep End (1).
I have been communicating with Felix via the JYP Bubble app (next B-app) since May 2nd; it is a paid app designed for communication between JYP artists and fans. The app is interesting because what a fan writes is visible only to the artist being addressed. What the artist replies to is seen by everyone. The second interesting thing is that a fan can write up to 3 consecutive messages, each up to 45 characters. Then they have to wait for a response.
40 days after sending this video of mine (2) to Felix in a live chat on his birthday in 2023, the song Megaverse (3) premiered. Thanks to the 2nd meaning of the song’s lyrics, I started making videos about SKZ’s creation. Part of the Megaverse lyrics: „Got the mic, here comes a big one {by pointing to the globe}; Hold up high Atlas; Swallow up everything in sight; Make ours every song form, megaverse.“ Speaking and explaining something in a video is terrible for me, as I can’t speak fluently even in my native language. Trying to finish a video sometimes means not communicating with anyone (OK), not moving, not eating, not drinking (all the mentioned deal with ADHD to afford to finish a video), and at the end, when posting the video in joyful labor pains, I advertise SKZ and sometimes pay for views. So I advertise SKZ completely for free.
In the videos, I explain many hidden, double meanings in the creation of SKZ. The songs Chk Chk Boom, Do It, and Run It are in a similar vein to Megaverse, which is probably the most acting SKZ video. Felix’s acts are similar on B-app. It seems like he only gives suggestions I have to figure out on my own. In our first communication on Sunday, May 2nd, we greeted each other, and Felix announced that he was going online to make a video about food. I was getting ready for my afternoon shift at the Asda warehouse. The video is on YouTube under the title — „Felix ASMR Mukbang — Secret Collab Tease“. He writes mostly in B-app in Korean. I can accidentally translate one message twice, or I miss 2 other messages if I don’t know the characters. The longest chat started with Felix uploading photos of his Ferrari. He wrote that he wanted to fall asleep in the car while I drove (the point is to put it in my videos that we know each other). He also wrote that he was looking for a teammate for an online racing game. I asked him if we could communicate outside of B-app. He replied that “Decoder_UK” would not manage him.
I wrote to Felix to say that I had no money and had just lost my wallet. No answer. I cannot make a video about food for personal and religious reasons; I tried gaming 24 years ago while building a PC (for testing).
When I uploaded the link to my latest video to the “r/kpop_uncensored” room (4) on Reddit, in addition to advice to seek help and that I have been spamming them there for 3 years, my B-app nickname — Decoder_UK — was marked as a robot. That is, the SKZ members are writing to a robot. 2 weeks ago, I stopped and asked myself whether I really needed to experience exhaustion from various mistakes. Maybe because of eating less (thanks to the heat), being labeled a robot, and people’s complete inability to dig deeper, I really started to identify myself as a robot. Without a conscious decision, I stopped communicating via Bubble.
I can’t afford to accept any proposal without knowing in advance what it’s about. It’s impossible to leap into the unknown when I have no idea if there’s a bottom there. So I’d like to know if there’s anything to announce. Whether the main idea in my videos will be confirmed, or I’ll be presented as the most interesting, oldest, and most persistent fan — just something like a showpiece.
I wonder if it is difficult to ask me to do this and that and then discuss the possibilities and limitations. In addition to discussing further steps with Felix and possible public backlash — if the information in my videos is confirmed, because Felix, SKz, JYP agency, and I can be labeled as liars and everything is made up in advance for a single purpose, which is fame and profit, I would like to tell Felix, (or he to me), how to go through this anabasis as smoothly as possible. I want Felix to learn more about my current life too. (It doesn’t have to be a video call.) One reason is that, based on the reactions of the people around me, I sometimes feel like I’m texting to an AI robot or Felix’s replacement on Bubble. This is another reason why I have reservations about using the Bubble app.
Is there any chance to communicate via an internet application, such as Zoom? Maybe Felix is afraid of me, maybe there is an age difference. I believe that the most important thing is the SKZ’s legacy, which should endure far beyond our lives without bias from future “truth seekers”.
Sometimes Felix treats me as he remembers me most when I was 5 to 10 years old. But I am 57. Sometimes when I wake up, I can’t feel my legs, and when I go down from the 2nd floor and forget to turn on the light, I risk not only an injury after a fall. It would be beneficial if Felix thought the same way.
Thank’s.
My chnells on You Tube and TikTok
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